is it true that as you grow older life gets more tiring? is it true tat if you are older you are more matured? is it true tat age comes with more responsibilities? or is it true tat you are destined to meet ya prince charming?
life can be cruel at times. when you think tat you finally 'did' it or finally you are happy, something comes along and hit you real hard. smashed you deep into the ground and u have no strength to stand up. life is so unpredictable. tragedy strikes when you least expect it.
just a few days ago, prior to my departure for my 10days flight, a couple of things happened. a friend is diagnosed with an illness, another had to go for operation. One found out something and came to face with the uncertainty & mystery around the relationship. as for me, i found out that my younger bro got into a fight & is in boy's home. so sudden, so unreal.
am i responsible for what happened? yes. for not staying with my family, for not being there all the time. but am i responisble for playing the father figure & being the breadwinner at my age? maybe yes, maybe no. for me i believed its only natural to look after ya family.
BUT WHY? why me?
am i wrong to indulge in things tat will bring me away for that couple of hours?
am i a bad guy bcoz i smoke & party?
am i immature bcoz i am only 26?
am i stupid bcoz i have no savings and still lend money to my friends?
am i not good enough bcoz i am fickle-minded?
am i destined to be a love fool bcoz i am emotional and passionate?
who to appreciate me for who I AM?
what does relationship means to you? does it mean finding someone that you can share a life with mentally, physically & emotionally? someone that you can loved and be loved? someone that will be on your side for the rest of your life? REST OF YOUR LIFE... but who will know tat it can last so long?
should a opportunity that you have lost comes back, would you grab it? or would you let it pass again and hope something even better will come along? or would you just stick to what you have?
would you live life like there is no tomorrow bcoz life is so fucking short?
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7 comments:
I think the most important thing is life is to enjoy and cherish whatever you have now. Be thankful with what you have.
There are some things which you cannot control. Life has a funny way of doing things. Sometimes by leaving it alone, everything just works out fine.
Well thats life for you my friend ..... we won't know what the future will bring so we have to just go on with the life we are in now and when the unthinkable happen you just have to handle it the way you know best ..... :)
This entry made me feel sad :(
Life sucks I know.. It can never be perfect. Thats how human are being created. We are complicated and never contented. But life still goes on.. We cant always blame things on ourselves. Things happen for a reason.
Today he said, I'm the one who keep him going... I asked, what if there is no me.. He said he might just give up everything cos there is no meaning anymore..
I went silent... I dont know what to say... Should I feel happy hearing it? Or what? I dont know...
I think... I'm in love but I'm afraid to love... I dont wanna get hurt :(
Gabby, I have more respect for you more than you and I know. You've accomplished so much with so little to start with. Keep your chin up high and look forward to the future. Things only get better. As the days pass, life becomes clearer. I give thanks for our friendship.
thank you my dear friends for ya wise & kind words...
jaslyn: pls dun be affected by my post. like wat daniel said, enjoy & cherish watever we have now. i guess all of us will get hurt along the way & we will never know if we never try. =)
daniel: sometimes i wished i can juz leave it n let nature takes it's course...
ryan: ya.. if only we know wats best.
tim: you shld know tat i m really very grateful to have friends like you around me. much of my most happy times are spent with friends... =)
gabby you're one of the most caring, good-hearted people i know in this world. hope things are looking up for you, life is such that there are ups and downs, it helps to make us wise, not afraid. i think you have done alot for your family, not everyone is given the same hand of cards and you've made the best of it and i salute you for it.
Gabb!
omg, it has been a real while since i last read your entry and this one is so heartrending. i cant help wanting to sob.
true enough, life is too short. furthermore, the job we are holding on is a real big risk.
all i can summed up is, you're stronger than you think you are. and im sure you will make it through someday.
have faith, my friend +)
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