silent night...

mahjong today ended much earlier than usual. n yes, i lost. again. haha.. but not much. i guess playing mahjong for me is more to kill time and its something tat i find exciting n fun to do. when i was in the cab on my way home, as i listen to my nano (i washed it in the washing machine so sent for repair n they gave me a new one!), my heart became really heavy. jus like how i feel everytime when i come out from the cinema. its like i will feel really lost, really empty and everything seems to be so unreal... mayb its also a feeling of missing some1?

i think i know why i sleep so late whenever i am back in singapore... i dont want the night to end so quickly. time is so precious since i am back so little and i want to do as much as possible. but no matter how much i do, like i partied the whole night, i still feel its not enuf, i still feel empty. i think i am too afraid to face the loneliness.

some1 called me this afternoon n i felt really good. whenever i get tat call, my face wld juz brighten up and i will be smiling to myself like an idiot. haha.. i guess simple things like an sms or a call does wonder to one's mood. am really looking forward to my hkg/sfo flight. especially hkg. so many fond memories. =)

hmmm.. suddenly i am feeling better already. gabriel, happy thoughts, happy thoughts! haha.

Dan Shui, Taiwan, 310507